I Will Survive

I’ve survived!  Well, so far.  It’s still early in the game.  I have a 3-year-old and a 20 month old and they haven’t killed me yet. We are finally getting out of the stage where “you can never leave the room, you always have to be within 3 feet of your kids” phase. That is a phase isn’t it? They are playing together, fighting together, and crying together, sounds perfect to me. The amazing thing about having two girls is that they will always be best friends. Watching them interact now is just preparing me for the future I think. Who am I kidding, they won’t always be best friends but a mother can dream right. Hell, my sister and I hated each other until we were in our twenties but we were also 5 years apart.


No smiling.

My youngest has started talking somewhat in english and the oldest can’t stop talking unless a stranger walks into the room.  It is amazing how young children start to talk back to you.  I would have thought I had a couple more years.  We have one potty trained and I’m working on the second as we speak. I will have her trained by her 2nd Birthday in July! Fact. As I sit here watching Frozen for the 100th time and they are perfectly content sitting in their chairs watching it by themselves. Besides the occasional request for food, they stay put.

I love being a mom.  I love being a mom.  I love being a mom.  I have to say that to myself a lot.  It’s stressful but not like “work stressful”, it’s an easier kind of stressful.  Hell, feed them, love them, teach them, clean them.  Pretty much sums it up.  If I ever feel like I’m doing it wrong or that I’m not a good mom, I just was an episode of Teen Mom 2!!!  After an episode of that I am Mom of the Year.

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Bucket List Update: Not a complete fail

It’s October. It’s the middle of October. Where did the summer go? My bucket list was a great idea but I should have known that it was going to be impossible to finish. I did get most of the kid stuff down but we never made it to one Royals game. I can’t decide if I’m just lazy or way too busy. I think that I have convinced myself that working a full-time job with a one and two-year old is just plain exhausting and that’s my excuse.
My friends with older children tell me it gets better but I believe they are full of it because they are consumed by soccer practice, volleyball games, and football banquets. A little much you think. I believe when I was in the elementary school we played one sport at a time and had practice on a Wednesday and the soccer game was saturday morning sometime between eight and eleven in the morning, and that was it. It is exhausting just thinking about it.
As the winter months are approaching they girls are getting to that fun age where they can play with each other. Reese is running around the house and Maggie is right behind her bugging the crap out of her. Ahh, super fun times at my house. Maybe I cool it with the Bucket Lists and concentrate on the real important tasks at hand, potty training and getting an almost 3-year-old to sleep in her own bed without a screaming fit. I will keep you posted.

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Summer Bucket List

I was introduced to The Happy Family Movement by my new favorite photographer, Nicole Renee. Even with our busy schedule I think we can do this summer. So here goes, Our Summer Bucket List:

1. Royal’s Baseball Game with the children. We have taken Maggie in the past but the little one has yet to see the Royals lose in person.

Maggie's 1st Royals Game

Maggie’s 1st Royals Game

2. Kansas City Zoo. Took Maggie last year and she had a blast.

Kansas City Zoo

Kansas City Zoo

3. Lunch on The Plaza without children. I love dining and day drinking.

4. Day on the Lake (on a boat). I’[m still a little to over protective to take the girls to the lake house but we can take them on the boat at Wyandotte County Lake.

5. T Bones Baseball game with the family. We are right down the street from the stadium and they have a great playground for the kids. No excuse not to go.

6. Outdoor Concert. I think the last outdoor concert I attended was Cross Canadian Ragweed in 2009. Hell, that was the last concert I think I went to. I used to be cool.

7. Deanna Rose Farm. It would be perfect for a toddler.

Maggie at Deanna Rose Memorial Day 2013

Maggie at Deanna Rose Memorial Day 2013

8. Family Portrait Session by Nicole Renee. we took portraits when Reese was about 3 months old but that was it. A family photo session is much-needed.

Family Portrait Fall 2012

Family Portrait Fall 2012

9. Watch a fireworks show. This task shouldn’t be too hard since my family is in the fireworks business.

10. Build a sandcastle with the kids. We are taking a family vacation to Florida in August and we are right on the beach. Maggie would love to build a giant sandcastle and then she will proceed to knock it down.

11. Catch lightning bugs. This just screams summer to me.

12. Date night. Not just dinner at Yardhouse on a Tuesday. A dress up dinner at a romantic restaurant is my favorite. Nice wine, great food, and dessert!

13. Wyandotte County Fair. Another summer favorite for kids! I won’t let Maggie on the rides but at least she can run around. I know, I’m no fun.

14. Royals Game WITHOUT children. Nothing better than a night at the stadium with a good group of friends.

15. Play in the sprinkler. The kids are already little fishes in the pool, they will love the sprinkler.



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New Challenge

In January I told myself that I was going to try to write an entry every week, and now it is the end of May and I haven’t finished one!  New goal, try to write one every month.  I. can. do. this.

I also have been attempting to read a book, The Happiness Project and am a whole 25 pages into it.  It’s not like I don’t know how to read because I can, I swear.  I have read those same 25 pages over and over again just to familiarize myself with the book again. Exhausting. I am hoping that one day I will be able to relax and do those little things like read a book or go to the restroom without a toddler following me around asking me very important questions.  Don’t get me wrong, I love my children but this momma is on a journey to balance work, family, and me time. I’ll get there and you will most likely hear about it along the way.

My little one just started her little army crawl last night so I officially have two little girls on the move.  Reese is a complete momma’s girl and has been attached to my hip for the past 10 months so I am loving her desire for independence.  I am just praying that she will enjoy playing without me holding her! At this point I can’t understand why I don’t have super toned arms after carrying around a 20 pounder and a thirty pounder, they should be ripped.

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Sleeping Beauty

My family is now complete.  I have a wonderful husband and two of the sweetest little girls (for now) in the entire world.  Everyone always asks when we are going to try for another one and I have to politely answer that we are done.  What I want to say is not nearly as nice.  Kids are a TON of money, daycare is a TON of money, and quite frankly the thought of being pregnant again makes be ill.

Reese is 4 months old and Maggie is turning 2 years old in less than a week!  Time flies when you have kids.  I am proud to say that I have mastered the art of getting my children to sleep through the night starting at young age.  I do believe that if my children didn’t sleep through the night I would be a different person entirely.  We prepared ourselves for a baby that cried all the time and didn’t sleep because Maggie was the easiest child I had ever experienced or even heard of.  Reese is a complete dream.  I think she is even a better baby that Maggie was.  Hears my secret to getting a newborn to sleep through the night.  Stack their feedings.  Feed at 6pm then again at 8pm then again at 10pm.  If the baby is asleep wake them up.  By staking the feedings you are filling those little bellies enough that after a week or two of doing this they will not wake up for those middle of the night feedings.  I still remember both the nights that the girls first sleep through the night.  Maggie was 9 weeks and I think I woke up 5 times to check the monitor to see if she was okay.  I believe I also got out of bed to go check on her.  Reese was 10 weeks old and it was my husbands night to get up with her at 3am to feed and put her back to bed.  She was like clockwork, always up at 3am, drank 4 ounces, then right back to sleep.  I woke up at 6am and realized that my husband had never gotten up with her, and the first thing that came to mind was,”asshole got to sleep the whole night, it was his turn”.  Wife of the Year.

Kisses from Maggie

Having two little girls is the best.  Reese is just starting to do more things and I can’t wait to see the girls play together in the future.  Exciting times for our family still to come and I’m so excited.

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Like Mother Like Daughter

My whole goal when I was a teenager was to be a cooler and better mom than my mom.  I was one of the worst kids in the whole world and I honestly don’t know why my parents didn’t drive to the middle of nowhere and leave me for dead.  I totally would have.  When I was in high school I thought I knew everything and that I should be able to do whatever whenever I wanted too and I did most of the time.  I won’t go into detail of what I put my parents through but it was awful and I apologize to them every chance I can to this day.

So I now find myself doing things just like my parents, especially my mother.  Although I didn’t agree with them at the time, I now realize that they raised us a certain way to mold us into the people we are today.  Now that I have two little girls I have already decided that they aren’t allowed to date, stay out late, or do anything remotely dangerous!  You think I’m kidding.  I have turned into my mother and I love it.

I find myself doing the same things she does all the time.  For example, I have our kitchen drawers organized like she does.  I even find myself putting votive candles in the dish towel drawer just like my mother.  It is those little things that I am noticing all the time and I’m sure my dad and other family members can point out a million other things.  I fought so hard not be like her as a teenager and now that I’m an adult, I want to be just like her.

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Super Mom, kinda but not really

I don’t think I was fully prepared to be a wife, mother of 2 girls under the age of 2, and a full-time employee.  How do people do this!  After being off work for 12 weeks, I finally went back to work on Monday and realized what I had been missing was not worth missing.  The first day back it seems that I scared off the replacement we hired to help while I was gone.  She literally went to lunch and never came back, leaving me with a full afternoon of patients, one doctor, and new office software I had never touched.  Stupid girl.  Why bother even coming in on a Monday morning if you plan to go to lunch and not come back?  The day went fine though, mostly because I’m freaking awesome.  I would like to find the little twit and tell her thanks for setting me back on taking a new position.  Now I have to find and train the next person which is going to take forever.

Everyday is battle for me lately.  Basically a battle not to open a bottle of two buck chuck when I walk in the door from work.  I know I can’t be the only one that feels that way.  My oldest girl is so great with the new baby which actually surprised the hell out of me.  She basically just tickles her fingers and feet, kisses her hand, and tells me to put her down. She has her little meltdowns though when I’m holding Reese or feeding Reese.  Exhausting some nights. All I’m thinking about while I type this is a bottle of wine.

Hopefully all this exhaustion will pass.  I pray that it will at least.  Between the dishes, laundry, and the attempts at sleep I feel like a failure some nights.  Wendy’s counts as dinner, right?  I even found myself flipping off my 22 month old as she ran away from me the other day.  Okay, I know what your thinking but her back was turned and that was me getting my frustration out.  I realize that I’m not winning Mother of the Year 2012 but maybe next year.

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